The day started with a lesson of reactive decision making. Peter Gersten, Sedona’s Vortex Jumper, lead my travel tribe and several others on a steep 600 foot climb up Bell Rock. We all seemed to second guess ourselves at each layer of height as Peter would call out clear instructions to follow his precise foot steps. His insistence to the top was a challenge to stay focused and own my decision to trust myself and move forward without time to dwell on the ever-growing risk of looking down.
Looking back on my 29 years of life, I can think of many moments I’ve doubted my mental and physical abilities. I never thought I had the balance to become a tightwire walker until after much play, my body just became familiar with confronting the apparatus. I couldn’t imagine my capacity to handle an emergency by myself until a past lover went missing on a cliff side in a forest for over 16 hours through the night (he was rescued and is living well). Saturn has a way of testing our confidence and revealing our limits through the most unexpected and sometimes dramatic circumstances. Over time, I think I just got used to Saturn’s barriers and blows, deciding to either let go or push through. Of the times I’ve chosen to push through, recognizing that the trials are never going to stop, I’ve surprised myself with how independent, intelligent, and capable I am when I allow myself to be. Though the task might feel like a voyage, the decision is as simple as do or don’t. Its really about what one would like to achieve and how one wants to spend their journey before it ends. So I decided that I was climbing to the top of Bell Rock…and I did without thinking to long about each daunting step.
The climb down was overwhelming. Throughout the day, I had hoped for an hour or two at one at a beautiful site without disturbances to just sit in reflection. I expected this to be the best way to receive messages from the universe. On the contrary, most of the day was filled with the noise of others nearby and constant movement towards destinations. Several times my encounters with individuals were interrupted. Considering my easily sidetracked mind, how appropriate for Saturn to send his message by throwing so many distractions my way. Understanding that Saturn represents intense focus and receptivity, I realized that I needed to do my best to be in the now and go with the flow (also relative to my north node in Pisces). Eventually, I thought “Okay, Saturn. Fine! I get it. I can work with this.” In conversations I felt important to continue, I simply said “Can we get in contact later? I’m feeling very overwhelmed at the moment, but I really want to continue this conversation.” The result was very understanding friends who recognized the situation and agreed to create another opportunity with me later. Easy as that.
I’m learning that it is up to me to ride the vibe of any instance, no matter the circumstances. I chose to embrace the rush and listen to the message of being patient and working within the boundaries of circumstance. I received constant reminders that I needed to let go of my agenda. It was annoying, but I let my disappointment and resistance fade away as I embraced the chaos and accepted what was happening in front of me. It was relieving to give up the fight of my expectations and to just be. It became easier to hear the lessons of the universe. This first half of my day was certainly life’s custom lesson for me in trusting my decision making skills and ability to stay focused. We all have as much strength as we allow ourselves to have as we take ownership over our own lives. Its simply a matter of perspective. Are you willing to accept what is in front of you? If so, what will you do next to make the journey worthwhile?
Click here to read about the second half of my day with Saturn at Cathedral Rock.
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Written by: Nena Woo