My mind rolls over and onto thoughts that continue and expand constantly about everything in front of me and within me. Directions that can be hard to follow, but also hard to let go.
My ears, unfortunately, can hear so much before I am distracted by the depth of thoughts they've triggered.
My eyes savor the depth, contrast, vibrance, and hue of every scene. Learning to accept the light and especially the dark with respect for what I don't understand nor am entitled to.
Accepting what I cannot control, letting go of my past and letting in all that I've deprived my heart of.
I choose the words I speak carefully and intently with desire to understand and be understood.
I allow myself to love others to whatever depth my heart desires while learning how and what it means to do the same for myself. Hearing myself first and trusting my intuition. Allowing the space for my heart to speak in a way I've only suppressed for most of my life.
Now I choose to listen to the screams buried inside my chest causing me to test my limits and move into unfamiliar, yet intriguing directions. I trust myself more than anyone. I know I can, so I am.
I cannot ignore the emotions I have about my life any longer. If life and death are all we are guaranteed, then now is certainly the best time for me to lead an emotionally fulfilling journey... before it's over.
I'm ready to start over, gaining the tools and resources needed to now survive and thrive by the calls of my heart.
I am provided what I need when I accept what is and learn to work with it and not against it. I can mold my happiness with what I'm given. I can ask for anything.
I will love my soul and share too.
Written by: Nena Woo